If I have the gift of prophecy, and know all mysteries and all knowledge; and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing.

And if I give all my possessions to feed the poor, and if I surrender my body to be burned, but do not have love, it profits me nothing.

This verse has been running through my brain so much within the last couple of days. I think about how it sums be me up really well. I try so hard to know so much about God. I am the type of person that needs to know everything and I pride myself on the knowledge that I have.

I know about God's love and I will talk about it freely but for some reason my own ability to love is inhibited. I would much rather say, "God, if you just send me the good-looking, sinless, normal, and unflawed I will gladly love them. Jesus takes care of the weary and heavy-laden so I'll take those whose worries are least cumbersome."